Someday you feel tired of what happened in your life. You feel that you did your best but you are not. You did everything you could but you never get the outcomes as what you expected. You feel that every hardwork was just in vain. You feel that every person you loved is going to leave you. You feel that you’re in the bottom of your life. You’re in the edge of the corner and can’t going back. You feel that you want to overcome it, but didn’t know what you should do. Sometimes you feel that you didn’t deserve a life anymore. You feel that you wanna end your life. It’s okay. We’re human not a mechanical device. Sometimes we can drown in pain.
Accepting what you feel is the most important. Yes. You extremely having a desire to die. You feel like dying was the best solution. You’ll start to get to know yourself. You’ll learning about limitation. Even the machine has a limitation. About what was hurt you, what was torture you, irritating you until you make such a decision. You’ll learning about yourself. And once you get to know yourself, you’ll understand what is happening in you. You’ll accepting yourself.
Trying to find more reason to life, even if it’s a simple reason. Look at what you haven’t, just take a glimpse at what you had. Like you have not tasting the new coffee shop opened near your district. You haven’t reading so many books in your shelves, they queue up in there waiting for you to come in. You haven’t watch the new episodes of you favorite drama or the new released movies. You haven’t finishing your comic. You haven’t traveling around the world. Do it what you want to do while you still can. Do it one by one, until you forgot about your pain, until you find the hope you’ve been searching for.
You’re the world of other people even if you feel that you’re nothing. You are the world of your parents. You are the world of your siblings. You are the world of your boyfriend or girlfriend. You are the world of somebody silently in love with you. You may feel you’re nobody, but you’re their world. Imagine what will happen with them after you left. You may feel you lost your world, but you have them. They will always cherish on you, believe on you that you could handle it.
Don’t be afraid looking for a help. There is always people who excitedly want to hear your story, your burden. You’re not standing alone. Everyone is standing around you. All you need to do is just searching where is their place. You will found them in train, in the bus, in the plane, in the bookstore, coffee lounge, dating applications, everywhere. They gladly welcome your existence, share the pain together. Once you found them, you’ll found that every problem is created together with its solution.
You didn’t loose anything, you gaining a thing, an everything. That’s you.